What is my biggest fear?
Success doesn’t happen overnight, it happens in the thousand nights that no one will ever write a song about. Overnight success is a myth. That’s what I keep telling myself.
In terms of reaching my goals, I know I have a long road ahead of me. But I am surrounded by a sometimes rather painful truth: there are other people out in the world who seem to be having no trouble whatsoever achieving their goals. Every morning brings news of yet another self-made millionaire fresh out of high school. Okay, I’m exaggerating. Still, you get my point, right?
It’s an ugly way to feel – unhappy because of someone else’s success. Human beings are sometimes ugly and I’m no exception.
There are days when I feel as though life is intent on reminding me of what I lack and rubbing my face in my own mediocrity. These reminders usually present themselves in the shape of other people. At every turn, I see someone who is more successful, more talented, more attractive, and more advanced in meeting important “milestones” than I am.
The decisions I made and actions I took in the past led me to where I am today. I take full responsibility for those decisions and actions. I own them. Still, sometimes, I look around and wonder how I got here. At this juncture, I am not where I want to be. I feel trapped and I can’t see a way out.
I know Roosevelt said that all we have to fear is fear itself, but I have a hard time taking those words to heart. I’m scared that I won’t accomplish my goals. I’m afraid that I might never realize my vision of success. My biggest fear is that I’ll spend the last day of my life, whenever that might be, alone and broke.
