Remembering the first few months with him is gratifying. It is still in my nerves all the giggles of our small talks with all the ‘knowing more each other’ stage. Everything was so innocent and new with him around and all our first time’s are just so lovely to feel them again and again. We were so young then that we were only thinking of exchanging sms and talking late in the phone ( like i really mean when the roaster calls). Our first few days, weeks, months and years made us last this long which i can fairly say strong.. and is getting even stronger and will be getting even better and better. That’s how i believe in us.
Like in any other long distance relationship, i have my struggles. It cannot be denied that sometimes we can think of unacceptable decision like getting even with our partners if they have done wrong that have hurt us. I too sometimes think of that, but i chose not to as it isn’t the true sense of fair play. But what i do instead is that i engage myself in going back our memories, both the happy and the not quiet happy… I can really attest to the fact that the amount of happiness and laughter can certainly kill a deadly wound. A popular thought of counting the happiness than the pain is indeed very effective to smear our clouded thoughts and judgments from being hurt. Once it is stained with the great memories, certainly you will feel more delighted to be in your relationship if it is worth the stay. Every time i feel down not hearing anything from him, i only think of how we met, the first time we held hands, the first time we prayed, the first time we ate in a fancy restaurant, and so on. The butterflies in my tummy are more reactive as i get myself to visit our past.
They say leave the past behind. But i think, GREAT PAST is not worth the LEAVING.
