The biggest kick in the figs has got to be emotional deflation.
*When you realize the love of your life never existed; when you wake up bored and the boredom doesn’t leave or boredom doesn’t have the decency to allow you to sleep.
*When when you hate your job.
*When you feel powerless when you thought you were powerful
*When it clicks in your head that your marriage is a mistake; when you realize someone you’ve admired for years and years is a shallow hint of who they really are. That love has beenWhen you see the facade as the facade. No one can take away the embarrassment of being fooled by aluminum siding.
*When you realize that little man behind he curtain is really the Great and Powerful Oz.
“Never meet your heroes.”
And if you do, make sure it’s brief and shallow. Don’t get to know them.
CASE IN POINT:
I met a comedian 20 yea s ago. It was the mid-90’s and her star was on the rise She was marketed as the next IT girl in the world of funny. And she was funny, the ‘be-flanneled’ Gen-X’ers of the period told me so.
So, she begs me to attend her gig on the main stage of the big comedy venue in town. She does 48 minutes of the most perfectly extemporaneous comedy ever written. Her execution was flawless, just as it has been on her HBO special. The red stage light comes on and she minds it, by wrapping up. She swallows the applause like sustenance. Adoration equaled adulation. The organism us short lived.
Instead of meeting with the club owner or any of her handlers, she walks straight up to me, demanding in no uncertain terms, to relay how funny she was and if I laughed, when I laughed and would I please describe the frequency AND the decibels with which any guffaw might have spewed forth.
Neediness is possibly the most unnatrati e trait in all humanity. I know–I’ve looked in the mirror and stared at it face to face.
