I was perplexed
They saw that
asked me how I was
I said,”anxious”
They asked,
“Why?”
I said,
“I think,
I don’t want to win
I want to lose,
and i want to loose badly
again and again,
multiple times,
so I can gauge
the depth of my character,
threshold of my patience,
I want to know
how far can I go
before stopping to gain a perspective
I want to know if i will keep rising up after falling repeatedly
But above all,
I want to know
If I have the desire
to be focused on learning
and not be bothered by the circumstances and outcomes
however distracting and discomforting it becomes
Can I go beyond that pain and suffering ?
Do I have the self belief that it will all be fruitful, one day ?
This introspection,
I do it everyday
and I lose some of it everyday,
but the patience and perseverance
keep nudging me forward
softly and steadily,
to the place,
where I belong..
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