Since I have become agoraphobic I basically spend most nights in the house anyhow.
What is different tonight is that my husband went out.
I try not to get upset when he wants to hang out with the boys. I know he needs time away from home. He definitely deserves it.
But,I must say that I envy him.
His ability to go and hang with the boys.
Not because I envy the fact that he gets to spend time away , but I envy the fact that he has the mental ability to do so. I remember the nights that I could stay out late. Be home when I wanted to be and wasn't scared of everything. It wasn't that long ago, but feels so distant from where I am now.
My husband works hard, everyday that he can to provide for our family. He deals with a lot, the stress of having to make the money to keep us afloat, the responsibility of the household chores outside the house, and the inability of me doing any of the above.
Most woman complain about their husbands, and on occasion I do too.
But, I must say that my husband is the best. Most men wouldn't deal with the things he has to, and he does it without ever a complaint. So he can enjoy his boys night out.
I will enjoy my Mommys night in.
