Are you squirming yet? It’s not a topic that a lot of people like to talk about or think about, including me.
On one hand, I think that we are desensitized to it in a lot of ways. We see it every week on CSI and in the movies; in some plot scenarios, you may even feel relief when the villain is the one who dies. Television, though, is nothing compared to reality. Even in reality, though, we have no problem saying that someone such as Adam Lanza or Michael Devlin would be better off dead.
There are lots of ways to go… quickly, painfully, early, peacefully…but, to put it bluntly, they all end in the same way. Someone is gone. And those left behind are hurting. Even in the cases of those who have wronged others such as Adam Lanza. His family is feeling grief not only for what he did, but also over the fact that he is gone.
Personally, I get caught up in the unknowns. Why does a mother have to bury her son? Why is he gone when his life and marriage and family were just beginning? Why did his grandfather out live him? Even though I was not close to him, I hurt for my brother who was close with him; I hurt for my aunt, cousins, and the rest of my family who should not have to be going through this. All of the unknowns create unthinkable amounts of stress and anxiety, and I can only imagine how the rest of our family is dealing with all of this.
What I keep reminding myself and find a small amount of peace in is that it was supposed to happen this way, no matter what of what ‘our’ plan was. If something else was supposed to happen, then that’s what would have happened. Regardless of if you believe in a higher being or spirits or whatever, one thing is certain: there is only a minute amount of things that we can truly control. Everything that is supposed to happen is going to happen.
