I Feel..... Sane!!

I can say I'm crazy all day long, in some way.... Yeah, I am. I'm not normal, but I'm happy with who I am, I don't want to change, I don't think there is anything wrong with me, I really don't. I fucking love the way I am, it's exciting. My family doesn't understand it, but what the fuck? They don't understand me, probably because I really don't share that much with them, it's really my doing. I know my family loves me, and I love them. But I'm really not like that, I don't want to share my personal shit with my family, I will if they really want to know, but yeah, there is a difference between family life and my personal life, I'm my own person.
This is really for those of my family members who are "concerned" enough to read this. I communicate better through my writing.
Like I said, I'm not normal, I never will be. I stay in my room a lot because I'm focusing on my shit, I'm trying to figure out who I am, I don't want to be a normal person who lives a normal life. The word "healthy" is..... it just doesn't work in what I'm trying to say. Times are different, healthy is being out going, and I am, they just don't see that. I'm frustrated, I am, I'll say that much. I'm comfortable in my room, not because I'm locked away, because I have my music right here, my computer
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And shortly after I wrote that I crashed, now I'm back in a face punching mood, I had a fight with my ex and now I feel fucking depressed and lost, I'm going to sleep now and I don't want to wake up. I would rather wake up to a world full of zombies than the people I know. And not the slow fun kind that are easy to kill, the ones that are strong and fast and deadly. UUHHUHUHNJHGUUHHH maybe I'm not health at all. FFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
good night, and god bless the zombie apocalypse.
Nick McDonald