It’s hard to write a Motivational Monday post when all you can think of is how un-motivated you are when in pain. But that being said, I got up just as I always do and struggled through my morning routine. I use Samuel L. Jackson words in my head just to actually get through my “routine”. My hair was on my nerves this past weekend because who has time to deal with that mess. So I cut that off. Now it’s time to get down to business.
I went out Saturday morning to meet a new group of ladies. I don’t actually feel like I have that many friends. I felt kind of bad ass with my new short haircut. Like I could go all Matrix on whoever or whatever pisses me off. I think it goes with my mood. Don’t mess with me Pain, I have things to do. Don’t make me cut you. Like Pain has become some nemesis. Maybe I should play Darth Vader music. Anyway, so after that, Fatigue wanted a piece of me, but I just didn’t have time. I had things to do. A college buddy was in town and I said I was going to meet up with him. It was my college homecoming and I had places to be.
I made it to the tailgating party in my high heel black boots, skinny jeans and black shirt. Take that. I enjoyed hanging out with my peeps and then there was the “after party” at a beverage facility nearby. I was drinking water to better hydrate myself, but there was also free, and very cheap, wine. UGH. I can have one glass said an old friend. Why aren’t you drinking? Said another. People. Chillax. Here, have this deep fried oreo, said one more. Nope. I can’t. Not if you don’t want me to be sick. I really hadn’t planned on explaining that the Aimee they knew, ahem, just you know, a few years ago, is not exactly the same one now. If it’s not gluten free, and refined sugar free, I am not eating it.
So yesterday, I had one more thing I was doing. As luck would have it, I was able to make it. I was dragging, but I made it. So guess who is paying for it today? Me. Yup. Pain, Fatigue, and maybe even their buddy Depression tried to visit this morning. Depression was like “Don’t you wish you were normal again? Wouldn’t it be nice to be able to dance with your friends without having to pay for it later? And of course the old, it must be terrible not to be able to eat real food.” So in my best Samuel L. Jackson voice I told it to SHUT the F up. I heated up my heating pads. I made my hot tea. I took my last Relief…which is my product as I am only on all-natural, and I called my momma. ha:) Who by the way, knows I use the F word to relieve my pain, and while I wasn’t raised that way she would want you to know, she also knows that if that is the worst thing I ever do, it’s ok. Because there is this wonderful thing called grace we can extend to others to let them know we understand that we are ALL human “beans”. And human beans have emotions. Even if the “they” who does research claims we only have 4, we all know that’s wrong. Have you ever met an angry woman?
