RE: Love

I while back I saw a quote, I'm not sure where it was, probably some little girls Facebook status. I didn't think much of it at the time but it stuck in my head. I'm not sure if it stuck word for word but it was something like this.
You know your in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.
~ Dr. Seuss
I wrote a post on love a few weeks ago, when I thought I had finally experienced it for the first time. What I felt was not love, I'm not sure what it was. A mix of vanity, imagination, false hope, and hormones; A lethal cocktail that brought me to my knees with shame, regret, sadness, despair, and uncertainty; A set raw emotion that I had never before seen with my own eyes.
I don't know what love is, few people do. But yet again I have found my self drifting into another tailspin of the unknown; an exciting yet terrifying emotional joyride, where it will lead I have no clue, but I'm not scared, I'm not hesitating, there is no time nor reason for that. I'm curious as fuck about it but I can't see the future. My soul has constructed a prison for my mind. Not able to see ahead nor behind, stuck in the moment I must make the best of this space, stop fretting about what lies behind the walls and make the best of those walls, build a home inside them, everyone needs a place to call home, why not make it where you are.
Life is a tail told by an idiot, full of sound and fury, signifying nothing.
~William Shakespeare
Life doesn't mean anything, there is no reason why we are here. There is only the moment, no divine purpose, no reason, only the moment. Therefor the moment must be the reason; Live the moment, that's the reason. Hate or love, it doesn't matter, I choose the latter; but all that matters is that you experience the moment, the reason.
I'm not saying that what I have found with this new girl is love, but I'm not saying it isn't. I know that I never want to leave her side, and that when I do I want nothing more than to be back there. And that I would rather be with her in life, than in dreams, and that she is all I dream about when I sleep. So by Dr. Seuss's definition, I have found love. But by my definition I never will. Love is that one thing that is better than everything else, it's the end of the rainbow, you run and run but you will never reach it, but you have to try or what is the point? Sitting and staring at it's beauty is not enough, you have to touch it, you have to, but you won't, trying to is the reason.
Nick McDonald