I haven't been around for a while.
Update - I moved.
I live in the south west now closer to my family.Whilst we were moving we had to stay with my family for a little over a month while my new home got refurbished which was lovely but it also bought up a lot of stuff for me that I'd kept buried deep down for the last five or six years. I had to deal with it all eventually I guess. I got really fucking depressed. Like hella. It was shitty.
I sort of lost myself and did the bare minimum for a few months but the other day I "woke up" and now I'm back to myself. It feels really good to have me back. I missed her. The good thing is when you're a miserable bitch, you're also really funny- as a way of covering for the fact you haven't washed in a while and you're in general a bit of a shitty person to be around so the Facebook page for this blog is really fucking funny. But it feels nice to not have a million and one things running through my head so fast that I think my head might just explode. It's great not having this feeling in my chest that so heavy I think I might defy gravity and just sink into the floor. It feels nice to get all my chores done on time and properly. Best of all though it feel good to have energy back and not use all you have by 10:30pm on being an okay mom and a less than mediocre wife- I'm back to being a really fucking good mom and a kickass boss wifey cuz that's what I am. I am a boss ass bitch when it comes to motherhood and being a wife.
I'm glad I took some time out to be a human aubergine but I'm back now. I have loads I wanna write about but atm I'm scared it will be shit cuz I haven't written in ages.
Anyways, I hope you guys are good and thanks for still viewing the blog even though I'm not posting anything. It means a lot to me. I'll start posting soon.
With all my love,
Monica x
