2018 Ahead

It has been three weeks already since you left Grandma. I miss you every second of it. Somehow I still expect to see you watching television or listening to the radio when I pass by your room. The night time is the hardest time. In those silent hours, whenever I hear the faint Chinese chant playing on your television, my heart skips a beat faster. Then I have to remind myself that you are no longer with us. I just wish I can have another moment with you. And there are so many things I wish I could have said and done during the last five months we shared together. But I know that time only push forward and I will never have that chance in my lifetime.
Instead of retreating into a cocoon state and consuming my energy into regrets, I choose to honor you by following your great resilience and adventurous spirit when it comes to tackling life. In face of hard times, your heart and your booming laughs shine only brighter than ever. For 2018 onward, I will live my life to the fullest. I can promise you that I will take care of Mom and all your love ones until my last breath. So when I see you again, I will stand proud and give you the biggest hug ever.
Thank you for loving me unconditionally and always make me feel special. I just want to let you know that you have always been my rock and my world.
Love forever,
Mo