Saturday 22.12.2012
While M. was at my place, an unfamiliar number was ringing on my phone. Maybe it was the Turk. Which one?
Sunday 23.12.2012
I was masturbating in a dream. It ended with culmination. Mum entered in the room saying it smelled a lot. I believed that I can be still faithful to God even after this. I woke up. It was a dream and it didn’t smell. But… I did cum. Did I masturbate? Did I break the cycle just when I was approaching one year anniversary? Maybe I did, but it wasn’t consciously, so…
At 10:59 Mike had written me “Nicky come on if you can that homework you took the other day take photos with phone and send it greeting.”
Of course, as a Christian, I took photos of the homework, zipped them and sent them to him, but… I added “and how do you know I took it the other day?” and imagine – no answer. After waiting for half an hour, I noticed he opened it via phone. Hahaha. I imagined the gossip girl told him as he first asked from her.
She invited me pre-midday to do the L.A. seminar work.
I went at mademoiselle’s, she was shivering. I choose a task from the book she had, she typed it. And fortunately I had forgotten my USB, so she opened Facebook to send it to me. In her inbox I saw she chatted with the withdrawn Trevor and at 20:08 – with Mike. I connected things. Just as I imagined. He asked her, then me, when they are already both villains it’s normal to ask from her first.
Later I added Trevor Ethanson on Fb, he accepted. His profile contains Christianity photos that explain much of his behavior, but not “we’ll repay” and his joy of the nurses with syringe.