Friday – 27.01.2012
Mary: It’s cold. Go on the heating. Or you’ll go there (next to Andrea)?
I leaned myself there. Andrea said:
-Tell me how the thing with Adele was yesterday. Don’t laugh. Or I’ll ask her if you don’t tell me. I don’t know who to trust.
Don’t laugh? I considered it as the same like you say “Don’t say ‘R’ that way” to someone who couldn’t pronounce “R” well. I smiled because I’m glad what someone starts conversation with me. She didn’t believe me. If she really knew me (if she was my friend for real) she would have known I don’t lie. I could have explained to her again, but what would I have got? Being treated like this?
-Tell her. – I said. -I don’t mind.
She walked.
-I’m telling you I didn’t do it, you don’t trust me.
She later spoke to Tiffany and Virginia about this and I could hear it.
Tiffany: Ask her, but I don’t believe Nick said it.
Even Tiffany didn’t know me well. Where is the religion people?
On History Tiffany advised me I should tell the reason to Adele for the quiz. I couldn’t talk much. Just before the Economy lesson officially started, my classmates entered in the classroom and advised “She’s coming”. After a while Tiffany walked in smiling towards me. I didn’t return to her. After her Andrea and Virginia entered (it was obvious why; I wanted to call her fat smoker, but God means much to me.) I said “Hello” to Adele looking at her. After she sat I felt like she looked at me, so I looked at her, she wasn’t.
Adele: Nick did you delete it?
Now it was only it, regardless of the spent hours and love.
Me: I deleted it.
Adele: Sure?
Me: Yes.
Adele: Don’t let it be found by someone.
Me: No.
The lesson went as usual. Even Adele commented about doctors, but I think it was quieter.
After the lesson I asked Andrea if she told Adele. She said she did and that she believed it.
-Did she say I hadn’t blamed you?
-She didn’t. Importantly she believed me.
This was the thing I liked most about Andrea: When we had a different opinion, we disagreed only for that and the rest was nearly normal.
-Did you delete it?
-I did. Do you want to see it?
I showed her but she said:
-Weren’t you “student 14”?
-Yes. I’ll show you…
…She was interrupted by Virginia and then Ethan. She left.
In the evening while writing my diary I cried for Ethan again. What did Darryl have that I hadn’t? Where was I?
Saturday – 28.01.2012
I spent the day on my PC mostly. M. came. In the evening I thought I should have gone to Barbara for her birthday. I forgot the time.
Sunday – 29.01.2012
I went to grandma’s with mom. Barbara sent me a message that she wasn’t celebrating her birthday. Then: Internet, TV (handball).