[The text from 28.04 concluding with 04.05 is derived from notes.]
Saturday 28.04.2012
I told mom there were 2 passengers with me that studied in Skopje and that I had asked what they studied. I refused to talk further.
Barbara came at my place. I saw the Devil twice.
Sunday 29.04.2012
I saw the Devil 4 times.
Monday 30.04.2012
Someone I believe to be Ducky said “Nicky” in the morning. There was a place for me this time in the bus.
-Eh, Nick will sit. – commented George.
I wanted to respond him (“I’ll sit”), but he didn’t deserve it.
At school, Frances asked me:
-Nick why are you like that?
-Like what?
-What don’t you hang out?
I can’t remember of the answer, if there was one.
On the waiting area Monkey commended me for something:
-Nickie like that.
Brian sat on the little wall next to me for 3 seconds, before Darryl called him. I forgave him. Ethan saw me sitting where the buys sat.
In the bus, Ducky was sitting behind me, others from the “mines” were sitting close. Ducky refused a friend’s offer to tease me.
-When he looks at you, he’s gonna kill you. Killing eyes. … If he looks at you…
Probably referring to my look from that morning after he told me it wasn’t raining. Brother I can’t kill you it is forbidden to me.
Then the “mines” called “Nicky!” in a choir. I couldn’t resist the happiness, I smiled.
-He got shy. – I heard Dave. -Where for the May?
-I won’t go. – I said quietly, not looking at him. I should have dared.
-Ducky, to it him. – It was Brian.
-I can’t, he’ll kill me. – Ducky avoided me.
Do what?
Keep place for him. – Perhaps Ducky was talking about me and the next morning.
I was happy for the situation and I wanted more.
