There are a lot of things that I don’t think of myself as. For instance, I am not:
- Fit, or aspire to “be fit” by joining a gym or start a jogging routine.
- The healthiest person ever, eating habit-wise.
- The perfect parent.
- Sociable. I have no close friends in town and I don’t go out (or get invited out) hardly ever.
- “Popular” by any standard.
It’s hard not to dwell on what we aren’t and to not let them get drag us down. I find that I quite often compare myself to others – “Oh, if only I could be as fit/healthy/dedicated/popular/ as …” Thinking about all the things I am not can get depressing and sends me spiralling into a pit of self pity. I really need to start thinking about everything that I am. While I’m not those things that I listed above, I am, however:
- Somewhat athletic, and I can’t wait to get back into playing slo-pitch in the spring next year.
- A pretty decent cook and I pride myself on making good food, even though it’s not necessarily “good for you” food. Besides, the way to a man’s heart is through his stomach, right? ;)
- Dedicated to raising my daughter as best as I can and I don’t aspire to be “Super Mom.” As long as my daughter grows up and is happy with who she is, I think my work is done.
- A great friend to the few I have. I suppose they are the “true” friends – They get and understand my quirks and honesty. If a friend can’t do that, then I don’t really consider them my true friends.
- Accepting that I’m not one of the “popular” kids. I suppose it’s my introvertedness, but I’m kind of okay with not being invited for coffee dates, movie nights, or lunchtime gossip-fests.
I have to constantly remind myself that for every “Am not” I think of about myself, I have a HUGE list of “Am’s.” I’ve been putting on the “woe is my” face too much lately and I really just need to think happy thoughts. In a nutshell:
What are or aren’t you?
