and I did GREAT. No need to take a Xanax.
I felt Safe.
We went to the Stables today about 30 mins away from my house.
A buddy of ours purchased a Race Horse, a 1 1/2 year old Cart Trotter.He called this morning to have my husband come with him to see her.
From the moment he said he bought her I was super stoked!
Luckily my cousin spent the night last night & was here to watch the girls so I could go to. I begged her to watch them, it took some bribing but she said yes!
(a large Iced Tea from Dunkin Donuts-- Extra Liquid Sugar)
About 15 mins into the ride I started to feel a touch panicky.
But I focused on where I was going.
What I was going to see,
The Panic lasted for mere moments.
The horse is absolutely beautiful. She is a little cuddle bug, and I wanted to take her home with me.
(If only I had the money for her pretty price tag.)
Even with all the depression and anxiety that I have I still find beauty in many things.
Nature & Animals are my "touch the heart" happiness.
There is something about the beauty of her,Somehow it brings a calm to me,
Its like it blocks out the world and all thats there is me and this beautiful creature.
She makes me feel peaceful.
I have been horse crazy all day since I seen her. Her first race is to be in New York in a few months.
She is very lean and trim, I know she is going to be a fast one. I asked if we could head up there with them to watch her first race.
He said we could and I am super excited about the trip.
I believe by then I will have the guts to do it. Its a 10 hour drive, but I know I can make it. (If 10 hours in a Car don't break me I dont know if anything will)
