Last year my sister gave birth to a perfect baby girl (I call her, pickle head) and just two days ago my husband's sister gave birth to a 1 lb. 3 oz. preemie baby girl. She is fighting for her life, and here I am, feeling like I am fighting with her. I have never been touched personally by premature birth. I have heard about it, seen it on TV, but never witnessed it. I feel like all I have seen or heard about is birth and babies lately. Truthfully, I have been drawn to it, which terrifies me even more. The thought of a baby, of pregnancy, oh it sends chills down my spine. How do women do it? How do they get up the nerve to push a watermelon through a lemon? I would be absolutely beside myself.
But, all of that brings me to the realization that my life just would not be as full without a little one in it. I can't imagine my life without my niece and and it just seems so empty. I am not saying I want to pop out a bambino tomorrow, but the prospect isn't as scary. I think that women, not all women, but some women have to really think about having babies, the timing, how many, etc. I am one of those women. I am also one of those women who will need drugs. Lots and lots of drugs. Has anyone else already made their mind up about this? There are those who are destined to give birth naturally and there are those who know better. Ha, just kidding. Hey, if Snooki give birth. I know I can!
What about you other women out there? Am I totally off point here?