I have a few different potential opportunities floating around right now, and I'm not quite sure what the Lord is trying to show me through them. I know which option would be great to grasp onto in fear and protect my heart, and which would follow what he's told me to do - but involves being vulnerable and open hearted.
Yesterday I was really going with fear, and even emailed a girlfriend pouring out my heart on the subject. So I prayed about it. It's funny how when you pray something and feel confirmation - it's really easy to either (1) forget about it; or (2) start to doubt that it could be true. My attitude changed on the spot. If that's not proof of God's will, I don't know what is.
Then this morning I opened my bible and came up on the verses on the Armor of God. It starts, "Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might."
So, today. Today I am going to be strong in the Lord. I'm going to accept that I can't even rest in my own strength, but in the strength of his might. And I'm going to pray for a shield of faith to extinguish the darts of the evil one.