Being a Mum is Not What I Expected..

Ethan is 6 weeks old today and seriously these last six weeks have been the greatest six weeks of my whole life. Before I was a Mum I felt that I had a pretty good understanding of what it felt like to be somebody's Mummy but I was just so wrong. The feelings that a Mum feels can only truly be understood by her when she actually becomes 'Mum'.
Those timeless moments when I catch my baby staring at me intently with his breathtakingly beautiful big blue eyes and then as I move in closer to him his face beams with the most precious, most delightful smile I've ever seen are what fills my heart with utter joy and absolute completeness. 
And to think that there once was a time when I felt adamant that I would never want to have any children.. Seriously what was I thinking??! Thank God I changed my mind - he along with his Dad are the best things to have ever happened to me!
I love that my home is filled with mess, it's a beautiful mess. It's finally full of 'home' and 'family', I totally get what this means now. I spent so many hours tirelessly cleaning it and re-arranging frames, ornaments, pillows.. you name it, when truly all it needed was baby blankets, teddy bears, gosh even nappies and dummies. Now it is home. 
And it's not just home that now feels 'right', ..I do too. I have finally found my purpose. You see I was never completely content with myself, I always felt that I was endlessly searching for what it was I was suppose to do. Becoming Adams wife set me on the path to finding out who it is I really am, but it was becoming a Mum to Ethan that made me realise who I actually am. Being a Mum to someone has given me a purpose beyond belief. To Ethan I am his most favorite person {along with Daddy}, I give the best cuddles, I make him happy.. I'm 'his Mum', he will always rely on me and lean on me for support and that makes me feel like a a pretty big deal!
So yeah, being a Mum isn't what I expected it is just so much better!
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