The other day darling daughter was telling me the things she wants to be when she grows up. She has a whole assortment of ideas and then turned to ask me if I thought of what I wanted to be when I was little. Of course! And it is an ongoing thing. Yes, I am "grown up" but I still dream of other things to do with my life. I don't consider it being restless as I love my job and how flexible it is with other priorities in my life.
If you check out my FitFluential Fitness Bucketlist on pinterest who can clearly see some of my hopes and dreams. Some will come true. Some may not. But that is okay. I would rather dream of great things, try to achieve them, and "fail" then to never dream and try.
One thing listed on my bucketlist is to be a personal trainer but in all reality, I would want to train runners. Running makes me happy. Very happy. I love making training plans for myself, I love tracking stats, I love the feel of running, and I love being a sweaty mess at the end. It is cleansing for my body and soul.
Just the other day I got an announcement. There is an opportunity to take the RRCA running coach certification course here on my island! Exciting news to say the least as I have been following their course postings probably for a year. They have tons in Texas and California by the way. Just saying.
But then I refreshed my mind with the cost and $300 seemed steep with an already tight budget. Or more accurately, it seemed like a lot for me to spend on me. I am not too good at that. Ironically that night dear hubby mentioned the course and that I should take it. (Yep, we are both on the local running club mailing list). I was kind of shocked he mentioned it and touched that he knew my inner dream. I know I should but I don't really tell him all my dreams. Perhaps I should. Maybe I will start. But I am getting off topic.
I pondered it some more, did some more research, added in registration fee and cost of CPR and First Aid and was feeling more hesitant. My co-worker was saying go for it! I was thinking, yeah, so I spend this money on myself and what if I don't make something out of this dream? What if *gasp* I fail to pass the test at the end. I got to get 80 out of 100 questions right. Confession: I am a pretty good student who has always been afraid of failure but always seems to score well.
Drawn by darling daughter
I texted dear hubby my concerns. I contacted the gentlemen who announced the course and found out, yes, this is probably a once in a lifetime opportunity here on island. I was beginning to sway the other way. Then I got this text from dear hubby....Please sign up for this. That was the best text ever. It had the "please" word that melted my heart and how can I say no to my husband when he asked so kindly? How can I say no to a dream?Did I do it? Yes, I signed up. How do I feel? Scared but excited. I want to pass this but passing it opens up bigger dreams. Bigger dreams I already hold in my heart. Dreams of running being a larger part of my life.
Phew.....I said it to the world. Now wish me luck, the course is in March so I have plenty of time to fret.
What are your dreams? How will you be bold?
Daily Gratitude: I am thankful for the opportunities that present themselves in my life.
Daily Affirmation: I have a kind heart full of compassion.