Big Brother, Nolan

Big Brother Nolan,
I had to take a few minutes to write down some notes about how proud of you I have been in the last months. You, my sweet child, have taken on this 'big brother' role with such stride. I will never forget rocking you before bed and you telling me that you wanted to sing to baby... 'twinkle, twinkle little star...'. You may not have known every word, but it melted me every time I heard you sing it.
Randomly, through out the day, you would come up to my belly and kiss it and say 'I love you, baby'. I love the way you annunciate "baby" - "bay-BE!".
The day you met your little brother for the first time, just hours after he arrived, you bounced right into that hospital room with nothing but excitement. Before you went to him, you came to me first, grabbed my hand, and kissed the top of it. Your way of saying hello to me - told me you missed me and loved me.
Then you came and sat next to him and I on the hospital bed and kissed the top of his head and sweetly gave him kisses and hugs. Not forced or disingenuous, but with such love.
I have watched you grow up so much in these last few months - right before my eyes you're turning into a smart, vibrant little boy who loves tractors and tools with all your might. You also deeply love your family and the people around you. You're becoming very independent and don't always need a companion to play and you're not interested in following the crowd of kids. You're happy and content. You especially love your grams & pops and we have been lucky to spend so much time with them this last month. What amazing memories I will always have of seeing your relationship with them grow.
Nolan, you're amazing. You may have a fire & temper, but you are undeniably one of the sweetest little boys I know. Thank you for loving me back, unconditionally, and forgiving me for my moments of impatience and mistakes. For letting me snuggle you and always being willing to snuggle and hug me - with out being asked. You have such an amazing spirit, son, and you may not even be 3 years old yet... but I am so dang proud to be your mommy.
I love you forever & ever. And I wish I could keep you little - this darling age you are right this minute, but then I would never get to see the amazing man I know you're going to grow up to be.
Love,
Your mommy