Having suffered so long with an ever growing mental illness I have realized that, I need to take the Steps needed to break free.
I caught the 1:45 pm showing of The Twilight Saga's "Breaking Dawn Pt. I" with my cousin.
At 12:45 pm, I was already so anxious that I took 1/2 of my Xanax (and stuffed the bottle into my pocket for security if i need more later) to try and "break" the vicious cycle from getting any stronger before I even left the house.
I feel like such a waste when I can't even walk out the door without my bottle of pills like some kind of junkie. But, I have heard people say people who have diabetes don't apologize for being sick, and don't feel bad bringing their insulin along so I shouldn't feel bad that I need mine too. (I guess the theory is a good one, but don't make me feel much better)
My cousin picked me up shortly after 1, but the panic took a spike before I got into the car. It didn't stop me. I just got in, I have my trusty "relax in a bottle" if I need it.
During the ride my Xanax really kicked in. I got pretty tired, but I was determined to do this.
We got to the theater, Its was beautiful! Like I said its been a long time since I had been to one and honestly I kinda forgot what they looked like on the inside. They had a very cute little Outside Ticket Booth that is open for sales in the warmer weather.
Outside Ticket Booth
Inside Sales Counter
The inside Ticket booth was nothing to write home about but I still took a picture of it because its a pretty big deal for me.
Display in the theater (that talked...Creepy)
At first I was freaking out, I made it into the theater and there it was, One of my biggest fears. Inclined Seating.
We at first went all the way to the top, It was a panic attack plus. I know the right way to break it was to stay there and not move down to the lower seats. But I couldn't do it, I battled the fear of the theater. and decided that I would take that one step at a time. The next time I go I will move up a row.
Concentrating on the movie made it much easier to be there. The movie was awesome. I am so glad that I went and seen it.
Some parts where better than I expected from my visualizations of the book. Others lacked the details I foreseen.
All in all though I believe Breaking Dawn was definitely the best of the series. It was also my favorite book of the Series, which may be why I feel that way.
Of course the ending was predictable seeing as how they split it into two separate movies. But it didn't matter. I cant wait till Part 2 comes out.
I will definitely be making more trips to the theater to see more flicks!
I had a good time.
