Why can't I catch a break? Do you ever hear that? I swear that I hear somebody say that at least once a day! I used to think that same thing. I remember being so stressed and thinking "why me?" After I moved into my first apartment and was living with roommates instead of my parents I felt so overwhelmed. I was in college, I was paying all my own bills, in a new relationship, learning to cook, working full time and I felt like I never could catch up and just have a blissful day that I wasn't worried and stressed. The worst time for me was when I had to drop a class because it interfered with my work schedule. The interference was causing my grades to drop because I wasn't able to attend ever lecture and I fell behind very quick. I was used to being top of my class and an awesome student so this was a huge failure that was directly caused by time. It must have been that same week that I also got in a huge fight with my roommates. It got so incredibly bad and I felt so unwelcome in my home. I knew I needed to find a new place to live quick. With those 2 major ordeals plus the small things still stacking up I felt like there were just too many obstacles that were pulling me down. I felt like I was drowning.
It wasn't until a year or so of just being extremely overwhelmed that I realized life really doesn't ever give you a break. You just learn to prioritize and cope with things better. Things that bothered me 5 years ago would never bother me now. For example.. oil changes. They used to cause me so much stress. All week long I'd think about how I'd make it from school to get an oil change and be back to work in time, how long would the wait be, should I bring homework with me, can I only do this on Saturdays, and so on and so forth. Once you get in the swing things that were a big deal then are not now. An oil change is just a part of life. Things that bothered me a year ago don't anymore, because I learned to cope and prioritize. Things we wish would go away won't. Like hospital bills for a stupid brace that cost $298.
Jared and I were talking about this the other day. I think while I was watching Teen Mom and one girl was complaining that life was too jam packed and she couldn't catch a break. Well my breaks are not months, weeks or even days at a time. My breaks are when I take a hot shower and can tune everything out for 30 minutes or when I take a lunch break and sit in my car with the sun warming me up and listening to Howard Stern.
Jared once told me if you have one day where nothing goes wrong and you're not stressed celebrate because that's a perfect day and I totally believe that.
What do you think? Have you ever thought you couldn't catch a break?