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So, the catch is that we are (virtually!) having a coffee date and sharing what is on our hearts. Having a good heart to heart conversation with a friend is one of the most fulfilling moments to me. There is such a vulnerability that comes when two people are being completely themselves. Blogging has brought me so many new friends that I wish I could sit down with today, but this is the next best thing!
Lately, my heart has been hurting. I've been putting on a smile and making the most of each day, however, when I get home and in bed at night my head has been swirling. The simple fact is what sometimes in life you never truly know a person, no matter how long you've been around them. Unfortunately, it usually takes some type of bad situation to bring out these qualities in people.
In the middle of this array of emotions, I've found a new inner peace. For as long as I can remember, I've been Type A personality and driven for organization and success in life. There have been so many times people have made fun of some of my actions. I've shrugged it off, but later felt bad that my tendencies were that noticeable.
Brian and I are both OCD about a lot of things in life, but not the same things. That makes for an interesting combination for a "to do" list around our house. I feel like our opposites worries are completely how we survive. Brian sees something that I can't, and vice versa. We compliment each other instead of butting heads like some may think.
Before we were married, I lived alone in my home (with Reagan and Roxie!) for five years. I had "my" way of doing things such as laundry, loading the dishwasher, cleaning, other chores, etc. I can look back now and tell you I was uptight. Too uptight. Marriage was a blessing for me. Brian does all those things I listed, just in his own way, as I do in mine. Both jobs get done and things are clean and put away. I knew within a month of us living together that I HAD to let go of some of my uptight/independent attitude or we were going to have a hard road ahead of us.
Brian even commented one day that he could tell I had slacked off. That may not be the most romantic thing he has ever said to me, but I tell you right now it stuck out almost as much as him proposing. I knew God had answered my prayer.
God already knows this issue on my heart. He knows I've prayed about this and asked for His help. And you know what? He listened to my prayers.
Now, I'm off to clean the house... KIDDING! :) The laundry can wait another day! I am going to enjoy my husband and the weekend!
Happy Friday, friends!
