So today's topic is control.
To be more exact- birth control. Ladies, I'm struggling with it. A little back story: I changed my BC at my last appointment. I loved my previous kind. It never gave me mood swings, it kept me regular, and it kept the worst time of the month short and sweet. It was fantastic for me.
So, you're probably wondering why I would change if it was that good to me. Well, I wish I hadn't, BUT with a price tag of $70.00 a month, I simply had to let it go. I work hard for my money, and the bills pretty much consume my paychecks, so that much of an extra expense, I just had to let it go.
So, enter the new kind- Lutera.
It's become my nightmare. I literally DREAD taking it because it makes me feel like a crazy person. I wish I was kidding. And to make this worse, it's happening in the wrong time period of my life. I'm trying to plan a wedding to the man of my dreams. I know weddings themselves can be stressful, but with this added extra level of worrying, I'm just feeling lost.
This past Saturday when I went wedding decor shopping, it was like my head was spinning and I couldn't think a clear thought. I mean I haven't even been on Pinterest looking for wedding ideas lately, and if you follow me on Pinterest, you KNOW how odd that is in itself.
But it's not just in the wedding department. I feel on edge with every day things. I hate the alarm waking me up because most of the night I spent lying awake and worrying over little stupid things. So when the alarm goes off, I have barely been asleep during the night and the last thing I want to do is get up and back at it again.
I feel like every decision I make, I second guess myself. Even little decisions about which shoes to wear to work. I literally am driving myself crazy it feels like some days. And I know women go through this all the time. People swap BC and their hormones go into raging lunatic mode, but this has never happened with me. So I need help ladies, is there any advice, tips, tricks that I can at least try so my man, family, and friends don't end up turning me into the crazy house?
I'm just down ya'll. Like really down. And I can't stand this feeling.
So, I don't do this often, but I'm asking for some prayers for me. I want to feel normal again. But there is some good news. I have a friend who tried this kind and she said month 2 is much better. I just started month 2, so let's pray it is!
Many thanks to you all..
