Deficit. It's a word that has been heard all over the media. Internet, social media outlets, TV; everywhere. It applies to our national budget, education, everywhere we look there seems to be deficit. Its a word that to me means, "not enough". There's not enough of something, so its a deficit. There's not enough money, help, man power, etc.
I've been reading a lot of blogs lately focused on infertility. I never really read much or learned about infertility until I became involved in the blogging community. I have to say that many of the posts I read leave me feeling sad and empty. I have put myself in those ladies' shoes and thought to myself, Wow, how would I react? Would I be able to live being just as devastated as they are? It keeps popping into my mind, especially since so many of the blogs I read are written by pregnant bloggers. I have done some research (as much as my mind and heart can take) to see the links and causes, even ways to prevent it. There is no ONE cause that is for sure and many of them are completely out of the woman's control.
There are so many different scenarios. Struggling to get pregnant is defined how? Well, if you try for longer than a year consistently without pregnancy, then go to the doctor and get tested. Infertility is defined how? Infertility is the inability to reproduce naturally. These are my own definitions here, so correct me if I am wrong. Sure, there are hormone treatments, IVF, sperm donation, etc. It's a deficit. A deficit of a particular hormone or necessary component for one to conceive. The world is full of deficits. My problem is that I always seem to find a deficit and focus on it until the cows come home. If that's possible...
I have been thinking a lot about starting a family and wondering if I am able. What if I encounter a problem? How come its easier for some and not for others to conceive? How can some knuckleheads have 10 kids (without even trying) and good, decent, deserving people have none (naturally)? Its something I am definitely thinking about more and more, but I have to remind myself that God doesn't have deficits. He is whole and good and lacks nothing. If things don't turn out how I want or thought they would, there's a God ready and waiting to make whatever is meant to be possible.
I have to say that comparing myself to the next woman is not only crazy, but silly. Everyone is different and we all have our own private struggles. By the way, I am not saying I am struggling to conceive or that I am infertile, just writing my thoughts and feelings on the subject.
Do you have trouble focusing only on the deficits in your life?
