Entry #23 – Thinking of Ex… Again

Posted on the 09 October 2012 by Harper

9:03pm

Dear Diary,

It’s night. I’m alone. I’m lonely and sad. And I’m thinking of my ex. My first girlfriend. The one who broke up with me 10 weeks ago and is now going out with my friend (Or he use to be my friend).

I don’t know how to stop thinking of her… of them…

I am so messed up right now. All I want is someone to talk to. I want someone to understand my pain, but it seems like no-one understands and no-one cares. My ex seems to not care about my pain at all. She could have at least waited to go out with my friend AFTER the university year.

But here I am. Stuck in the same Residential College as them. Stuck having to see them. Trying to avoid them, but occasionally bumping into them and then my whole mood is ruined.

Seeing them hurts me a lot. I don’t know how to move on with life. I don’t know how she moved on so quick. I meant nothing to her.

I miss her, yet at the same time I don’t ever want to see her ever again.

Yours, -Harper