My boyfriend returned after a 13.5 hour day of class and genitals. I took a suggestion from Emma over at Your Doctor's Wife and told him he smelled like fish tacos and he was too tired to understand! "I haven't brushed my teeth since breakfast." Poo. But as much as I thought he'd be divulging a goldmine of awkwardness over his first pelvic exams he just told me it wasn't that bad. And that the speculum didn't seem to hurt the female patient at all. Great, now all my ranting and raving about how painful that exam is will fall on deaf ears because some chick has a cervix of steel.
Actually that's just one part of the issues I'm trying to reason through. My M is becoming Doctor M and I have been clinging onto the old one so tightly that I didn't notice Dr M was forming. I understood that he was going to be looking at patients in a clinical setting but now that he's actually giving patients breasts exams and pap smears - I feel uncomfortable with it. I know I shouldn't feel this way since he's a professional, but it's still hard to process. I don't think I could handle him becoming a gynecologist- it would make me too damn self conscious.
The long hours were an eye opener as well. I was enjoying M studying at home for second year and it blew by so fast. Rotations start in May! It worries me a bit with our busy schedules. There's a good chance we won't get to see much of each other during tax seasons when I'm working long hours too. So much food for thought, I'm stuffed!
Well time to get my shit together and accept these things because it's only getting worse from here.