It has been 2 weeks since my brothers home coming service, it was lovely to see so many people come out and show their love and respect for Robert. We gave him a really good send off and everyone wore a touch of red which was one of his favorite colours. It still feels unreal and I think about him non stop and it still feels like he is just a phone call away. How precious his life was, and he leaves a legacy in his children and family, his love, warmth, passion, determination, peace and strength.
I have been thinking about my own life, my journey, dreams and desires. There are many things that I want to accomplish, I have still much growing to do in my walk as an artist - we all still have something to learn or a new technique to try. I am reminded that I need to step out and ask myself 'what if anything were possible what would you do next, and then what?' I have been working in the background trying to make sense of things and find my creative spark again. When I feel sorry for myself I hear the many conversations I had with my brother and he would tell me to 'just go for it!
Well, that's just what I am going to do. I want to share what I have been doing, in my art, do some videos of some of the processes, give myself some more challenges, write poetry, stories, photography, illustration, and just soar. As I have said many times, we only have this one life to life, and we may as well live it to our best. I will also be sharing what inspires me, and the work of other creatives, here on this blog, and on my wordpress writers blog.
Out of our pain and loss we have gained new insight into the life of those we love, those we have love and lost and the very meaning and purpose of our own existence. It won't be easy and there might be some days where we feel like curling up and crying our eyes out, that's OK, its all part of our life that we acknowledge. We don't have all the answers, but maybe I have a few that might be useful for someone else. I refuse to hide and pretend that everything is OK or to brush anything under the carpet - that is not being real, I am greatful for each and everyday I get another chance to make a difference. You will feel my story through my creativity and words, as I share we will go on a journey of uncovering together, sometimes you will get it, sometimes it could take a while or not at all, we all have our own 'stuff' to deal with. What is most important though is that you show up ready to 'step out', accept the challenge, grow, laugh some days, cry if you want to, be inspired and be real to yourself. What are you planning to do with your tomorrow?