Today I really realized one of my major flaws. I am a terribly impatient person. I went home on my lunch break like usual and I was taking the puppies out to use the restroom. I could tell Shia had to go numero dos (TMI) but I was so done with the bathroom break at this point, we'd already been out there 10 minutes and she is wandering around trying to find that perfect patch of grass. Squatting and convincing herself that patch wasn't the perfect spot and then she'd go sniff out somewhere new and squat again. It takes her doing this at least 5 times before she'll make a decision. I ended up just tying her leash to the porch. I went inside to go grab my phone to entertain myself while she found the prime shitting space. As I opened my front door I was like "Seriously, is my impatience really that bad?" Apparently it is.
Next impatient story. When Jared injured himself he was completely handicap and pretty much a vegetable the first night. I was helping him with everything from taking off his socks to being his human crutch anytime he needed to move. I enjoyed it for about 20 minutes. After that I was faking it. I would walk in to help him with something and have a fake smile plastered on my face. It must have been obvious, because after I did this a handful of times, Jared just looked at me and started laughing. He said he could tell I was losing patience with how much help he needed, but he definitely got a kick out that fake smile. I tried so hard to be patient that first night, little did I know that would become my routine the next few weeks. I have quickly learned how hard it is for me to be patient. Something that I'd really love to change about myself.
I have been told this was a flaw of mine for years so it's not really a surprise, it's just now that's it is hitting me how impatient I am. I really believe in faking that I have patience until I learn how to be patient. Of course, I won't wake up one morning and be blessed with patience, but I do think that if I realize every time that I am being impatient and catch myself that it will help me learn and gain that trait.
What about you? What are you wanting to improve about yourself?
