Really it doesn’t.
So just in case you are worried about me…
Here is my life right this minute.
In a nice warm house…yes.
Financially ok…yes.
Following my own path…yes.
Surrounded by amazing friends…yes.
In a good place in my heart and soul…yes.
Employed…this week.
Single…yes.
Happy…yes.
Am I on the path that I am supposed to be on? Who the hell knows. I do know that I don’t always make good choices. Many times in the past I have done things that I later wish I had done differently, absolutely, but I don’t regret anything that I have ever done. Nor do I regret any of the choices I have ever made. They have all made me who I am, and I think I am pretty ok.
I have spent my whole life trying to live up to what other people think I should be, doing all the things that other people think I should do. I am done with it, exhausted by it. I am a pretty smart girl, and most of the time I can figure stuff out, if I can’t I am not one to try and fake it, I will ask for help or advice if I think I need it.
I am way past the point in my life where I will make uninformed decisions about things that will majorly affect me and my children. I am on my own and proud of what I have accomplished so far, and I know that I can accomplish greater things in this life if I am given…no…when I TAKE the chance.
We all make mistakes, sometimes we take the hard road, when the easy road is there and totally obvious to everyone else. I probably do that more than most people. It is who I am, what makes me …well me. I can’t and won’t apologize to anyone for that, even though I sympathize and totally understand how hard it must be to keep up.
One of the main reasons I started writing was to express myself when sometimes spoken words fail me. I am a little bit more eloquent when I can think about what I am writing instead of trying to say it out loud.
So during this wee period of transformation that I am going through, you will have to bear with me…I know it’s hard, but you can do it…
Like you have a choice…well other than totally ditching me, but that wouldn’t be any fun now would it?
:)
So onto other things…
Here are the latest updates on the house…
The showing went off without a hitch :) though there is so far, no offer pending. I didn’t really expect there to be, with a thousand other houses on the market, most without a leaking roof and big blue tarp, and a cheaper price, they will have to really love this house :)
The good news on my end is that the roof will be started tomorrow, my contractor is a keeper I am thinking…now we just need some cooperation from the weather.
The other good news, I am good with it all, whatever happens, I have decided that life will take me whichever way it wants to, but I am still the one steering the Mustang baby…so it is all up to me in the end…
For right now, I am good to be just sailing along and going with the flow and I once again say…
Bring it…
It’s all good…
Happy Thursday folks…xoxox
