So many things have helped me to over the trauma of that horrible night back at the end of February, time has been an excellent healer and the CBT combined with a new book I'm reading have helped a lot too. I'm booked in for an endoscopy at the end of June with my Gastroenterologist who wants to recheck for H.Pylori and to see if anything else might be going on in my stomach. And whilst I'm nervous about having a camera down my throat, it's reassuring to know that if there is anything nasty left, it will be found. The whole experience and all the months I spent anxiously worrying after the first night I went to hospital have helped me to learn and to grow. I think our experiences shape us, even the bad ones. It's just such a relief to finally see that it's going to be alright. Things feel brighter now and not just because of my brightly coloured family snaps this month. ;)
I think one thing I need to learn to accept is that life feels fast. We're heading into the sixth month of the year tomorrow and I can't quite believe it. But then that seems to be a common theme with me - I can never believe how fast the months go. Maybe it's felt this fast ever since I became a Mum, or maybe a Mum of two? Or since I became self-employed? Or perhaps it's a combination of all three? I'm heading into my 30's this year and that in itself feels crazy! One thing I do know though is that I am happy, truly happy even throughout those not very nice months I felt deeply grateful for all the amazing things in my life, particularly my family. I wouldn't change a thing and I guess if you wouldn't change anything then it really doesn't matter if time feels like it's passing quickly.
We've just got from an overnight stay in a luxurious glamping tent at Warwick Castle and we had such a lovely time - it was so nice to get away and have what felt like a mini holiday almost. The boys were so excited and as huge castle lovers, as were Adam and I. Our tent was so cosy (yet incredibly roomy - more on this soon) and we fell asleep listening to the raindrops hitting the tent knowing we were in the grounds of a beautiful castle, it was such a wonderful experience.
We've got lots to look forward to with the house renovations currently going on. We're gaining a bigger kitchen/dining area, Logan's bedroom is being made bigger, we're gaining a porch, having our driveway done, having our garden completely made over and we're also getting a whole new kitchen. Our house is going to look and feel so different. It in fact already does as the walls for the kitchen and Logan's room have now been knocked through so we can now really see how big the rooms are going to be, which is very exciting! I can't wait until it's all done and finished completely and is all ours to enjoy - it really does feel like a bit of a dream to be turning our home into our dream family home in an area we have grown to love so much.
I hope you've all had a lovely May (how nice has it been to see some lovely sunshine this month?!). :)
Thank you for reading.Alex xoSaveSaveSaveSaveSaveSave