Its a New Thing......... but i Gotta Think.... and Boom!!!!!! Its All Gone!!!!!!

there is something new....... some new people, creating some kind of difference in my life..... its something really different.....

bugs: its not people you know that...... ;) its just that one...

nutty: all right bugs... its just this one....

bugs: i dont know the name......
nutty: oh come on bugs.... who are you kidding around.... you know the name..... (blush , blush)
 its just a very strange feeling... or  i should better say, its a bunch of strange feelings.... strange in a good way.

bugs: go ahead with it..... why do you hesitate....
i'm not hesitating, all i'm thinking about is.. whether its just nothing, or its real....

this is what usually happens... we waste too much time just thinking.......thinking about our feelings..... thinking about whether its real or just a phase that will pass by us......but mostly what happens is... we think too much and spend most of our valuable time thinking about whether its right or wrong, and then till the time we realize that it was really something new, something special, something worth cherishing all our life.... we have lost the moment........... and later on all we do is lament about the time that we have lost.... thinking about how good it was and how much we could deduce out of the moment..... how much fun we could have had and how nicely we could have enjoyed it.....
so its really important that we make the most of the moment... rather than thinking about whether what we are feeling is right or wrong..... the moment is not for thoughts..... its for an action that you will always remember all your life in your thoughts as memories....... if it was positive... then it will be known as an experience.... and if it was a negative one, then it'll be called as a lesson.......memories make us happy when we cherish them..... and lessons make us stronger every time we think about what went wrong.... and then we promise ourselves never to repeat our past mistakes again.....
so new things...... are just new ventures....... never ever say no to new things....... they might form some parts of your lives.......  because if you say no, then all you remember is saying no to an experiencebecause then... all your life, you tend to think about "what would have happened if i had said yes that time"
bugs: so what does it have to do about the new thing...???
nutty:  i experienced this kind of something for someone recently...... someone that started caring for me... i, at first, thought it wasn't real...... then eventually that someone asked me, not to let the love die in just one night..... and i was really touched...i started opening up, i realized i was actually being loved, but i just didn't know for sure, what it actually was...... and that moment i let myself free from the confusion and thought that if someone was so loving, i could be returning some amount of love too, it would be a great start.... may be a good friendship...... and the moment i started getting a bit of emotionally attached..... it all just vanished away.......that someone had started bonding with someone else near to him.... and shared it with me... i think pretty soon they will hook up...... and i am really happy....... cuz its better to be happy......... 
not that i loved him or something and was seriously committed...... i loved him as a friend, still love him..... but he made me feel really special for a moment............ and one has to know that he/she is special in his/her own way..... thinking this way makes life simpler........and even more happier................ but, i lost someone who actually thought i was special to him, made me feel special....... but it was all my fault, i was so lost in my thoughts that i never returned whatever i was getting..... and i have to learn from my mistakes.............
so i choose not to sulk anymore.....And stay HAPPIIIEEEE!!!!!!!
bugs: nice thought girl............... 

realise the worth of everything before it vanishes away................