Just wanted to check in with you guys and let you know I am still alive. I am still brainstorming ideas for my new blog and hopefully I will have it up for you guys soon. I am debating the name, but I do know I want it to be REALLY girly & feminine, which is totally a reflection of me!
Life sometimes brings forth unexpected challenges and obstacles. In my life, when things happen, the first thing to go out the window is my blog. Why? Because my blog life, as much as I want it to be, is not 100% my real life. It's an image, a brand, a persona. Do I want to tell you guys all of my deep, dark secrets? Well, no. I do, however, want to be transparent about my life and the struggle I have been enduring. I am just unsure of the right time. I am also leery of the skepticism and the criticism to follow. I know things now that I didn't know two weeks ago, or even three days ago, maybe even 24 hours ago. I am on this new journey learning about myself and life and the God I serve.
This is all really new to me. I feel scared, even terrified, at the thought that my whole life is going to change. Me and change? No bueno. But, I am learning that no matter how hard I try to control my life, its really not in my control, especially when life involves other people. I hope you guys will stick around and I am really excited about my new blog. I am excited to have something that is a reflection of me. I also hope you guys will continue to pray, think good thoughts, and send positive vibes my way. I think I need you guys' support more than ever. I don't have a lot of close-by friends, so my family has really been supporting me through all of this.
I also want to extend my gratitude to those who have been emailing me to check on me. You guys are SO sweet! I am thankful for the thoughts, prayers, and positivity. I really do not want to experience a shit storm from those who may not agree with the decisions I have made, because really, who are they to judge? I think if people understood more, and judged less, we'd all live in a much more peaceful world. Don't ya think?
I know I am rambling, so I will stop there, but I hope to get deeper into what is going on very soon. I know for many of you it will be for curiosity's sake, but I also think I have something valid to say. I think as a young woman I will reach a whole new demographic of women out there who can truly relate to what I have been through. I look forward to this new chapter, and I hope you guys do too!
Til next time.
