I had a really weird day yesterday. I think it started because Jared and I slept in... a lot. We stayed up till about 6:30am Saturday night (well technically Sunday morning), so when we woke up Sunday it was later in the afternoon. I don't know if it's the fact that winter is coming, but there is a transitional phase during summer to winter. When light starts to change, and it's all the sudden more dark than it is light, when you get up to go to work and when you get off work and it's dark. It takes a while to get used to. I always get stuck in this weird mode. Like I want to stay in my pajamas, and take long showers. Anyway, I think during this time I get a bit more quiet, and a bit more anxiety.
Yesterday we went to see a movie with my family, when we were leaving the theater it was about 10:15pm. We were about 2 streets away from my parents house, and a cop pulls behind us and turns on his lights. My heart starts to race, and we pull over. Both of us were really confused, and we were thinking, what could we possibly have done. Going through a checklist in our heads,we weren't speeding, the car is registered, are the break lights out? Does he think we've been drinking? Did we stop at the last light all the way? You know how you do when cops are around.
We thought we were lucky because the cop just went in front of us. We were following him for about a mile when he stopped. It was really dark, so it took us a minute to put the pieces together. There was a car with it's emergency blinkers on, pulled to the left side of the road. The cop had pulled to the right. We slowly drove past and realized there were 2 people that we assumed were from the car with the blinkers standing over a body. I have no idea what had happened or if this person was alive or unconscious. To us, it looked like maybe a jogger that had collapsed, and someone pulled over and called 9-1-1.
I am a very emotional person. I started to tear up, thinking about how long that person could have been on the ground, and then thinking about if it were someone in my family how horrible that would be. Which led me to feel extremely sad for this person's family.
I couldn't shake this cloud that came over me after seeing that person all night. I went back and forth. I felt really blessed that we live in a country, where people stop and help each other, and where the cop and ambulance were able to get there so quickly. Then I'd boomerang back to feeling very sad and emotional.
Everyone kiss your loved ones tonight, okay?
