It almost feels weird to be back staring at this blank page. I have been MIA from the blogging scene and this time I actually won't apologize for it. You see, I had gotten to the point that I was feeling like blogging was just another thing on my to do that I had to check off. And that's not how I want to feel about this blog. I started blogging to be an outlet for myself, to write for me, to document the memories that I may one day forget, and to keep anyone who wants to read up to date on my life. Blogging was never meant to be a chore, and I let it become that. And I exhausted myself. I think our bodies have a way of telling us to SLOW down and I had one of those moments about a week ago. Brian and I had been on the go for what felt like weeks. He and I are very much homebodies and don't like to always be somewhere. In fact, I've come to really love my recliner at home. Now, had you asked me this ten years ago, I would have laughed (a lot!) at you for thinking I wanted to be at home. Now, it's the place I want to be most. So, Brian and I had been dealing with a full schedule and I felt my body just desperately seeking more sleep, but I never had the time for the sleep. So, my body shut down.
Last Wednesday, we took Ben (Brian's little brother) to the airport to drop him off. He is currently gone on a month long training session to Fort Knox. We had to leave our home at 3:30 AM in order to get him there for his flight. I don't regret going at all, but I should have listened to my body a little more. I had a pounding headache and was sick feeling the entire trip there and back. When we got back to town, I went on in to work. Mistake.
I ended up having to leave at 1:00 that day and just go home and sleep. My body was done. Exhausted past it's limit. That day's sleep made me feel a lot better, but I can still tell I'm not 100% caught up yet.
I know this also goes hand in hand with the fact that I need to get up and be more active. I've gained weight since our wedding and I think the excess weight on my body is making it tire out quicker as well.
So, that's where I've been lately. I'm coming back this week, but I'm going to allow myself to ease back into this blogging world. I'm in no competition with anyone and don't want to feel like I have to slave to prove myself here.
I started this blog for me. I will write when I want in this blog, for me. 
Thanks for understanding! And to those of you who have text/email me to check up on me- You are SO SWEET! And that is exactly the reason I love this blogging community.
Have a great week, friends!
