Have you ever read this before? The part that I like the most is "So, love the people who treat you right and forget about the ones who don't". This past week, J and I were sitting in bed having one of those conversations. Yes, one of those, where you stay up way past the time you should. You laugh, you cry, you snort all in the same conversation, because there are just so many high emotions. Jared told me something that I didn't realize about myself. I have 2 emotions toward people in my life. I love them with all my heart, and they can do nothing wrong OR I make an opinion and it's incredibly hard to defeat that. I wouldn't use the word dislike, but in my head I do label people. "Too Loud" "too flirtatious" "too needy" and it's really hard for me to get rid of those labels. However, even when people are in the you can do nothing wrong group, they can be loud, need, flirtatious... whatever but before they had that label I loved them for something. Jared will never do anything wrong. He and I will argue, and after 3 minutes I can't find a reason to be mad anymore. He's definitely in that group. Shia, the pup, can poop on my floor and somehow she's not wrong, either.
After a debacle on New Years Eve. I want to have 2 groups in my head "You mean the world to me" and "I don't care". I have been having this on-going issue where I have felt very betrayed, by people I want to be very close with, and thought we had a good relationship. I don't think I can do it anymore. I think I need to not care and as the quote says "forget about the ones who don't treat you right". I don't mean cross them out of my life. I mean that I need to stop caring about how they treat me, because they can do things wrong. I shouldn't expect to have this untainted relationship. It's almost like putting people on a pedestal. Maybe I should expect them to make mistakes, and then move on.
I know this is kind of a ramble, but it's what is on my mind today. What do you do with people who don't live up to the standards you expect them to? When they hurt you? When the issue has been on-going.
