On Hitting the Wall; Need Cash!

I had no idea it had been as long as it has been between entries on here. I had hoped to make this a weekly update but I guess things have been kind of slow. At any rate I'm getting better. I've been back in a bit of a rut lately. Long story short, I feel like I could have maintained a good relationship, stayed in a not perfect but decently paying job, and studied full time back where I was instead of getting into debt here, losing a girl I love and basically being back at step one, albeit in a much better town. I found out I'd been given bad information on how much I'm allowed to study at the school I'm enrolled with, and that I could have been doing full time study back where I was. Teamed with the girl I had there and the job offer I got literally right before I left, I've been feeling lately like I might have made a bad decision. It couldn't have worked out differently based on the information I had and the way I was feeling, but I'm allowing myself a bit of self-deprecation over it. I feel run down and lonely, and there are only two things that are helping me through.
The first is my desire to write and get good at it and get my stories out there for people to read. I know I've touched on this before but it really is a satisfying, safe, easy and cheap way for me to do what I want. I honestly don't know where I'd be without the ability to put words down on the page. I'm still not writing as much as I feel I should but I'm definitely improving both in quality and quantity. The fact that I don't have to rely on anyone else to do it is also a big help as it's all on me and it's helping me to feel at ease with the way things are now. I certainly miss the girl I left, but I'm hopefully going to survive the grief.
The second thing that's helping me deal with my less than desirable feelings is a knowledge that I can deal with it and get through and improve areas of my life if I just take the bull by the horns and sort shit out as it comes up. I no longer feel paralyzed by a hopeless situation. I no longer feel the need to merely belay all of my bullshit away on others to get some breathing space. I'm learning that it's dealable and manageable, and again I can do it by and for myself. I'm thankful that I managed to work that one out and then actually get off my arse and do it before I did anything silly. I'm just sorry that I didn't work it out sooner and it took so much bullshit and me hurting other people to work it out.
Anyway, that's my little vent for now. I will endeavor to make this a more regular update and maybe begin including some interesting tidbits of writing, just for my own validation.
Peace.