Have you ever found yourself in a violent situation? Suddenly realizing that you aren't in a safe environment? It probably means you need to get yourself out of it.
I have found myself in this situation, where I no longer feel safe in my apartment complex. Lets just say there are some criminal incidents above my head, and I feel the need to be away from it. I have been threatened and last night, I decided to drive away and go to a safe haven at my kids house. I might end up having to do this for a while until I can find a new place to live as these people may not be leaving anytime soon.
These people must know that any number of us tenants could decide to act on this to make sure we all live in a safe place. It is important for cops to be helped so that bad people can go to jail where they belong.
So, I am now going to think primarily of my safety and will not be sleeping there in fear of someone coming down and beating me up. I just couldn't take that chance.
All I could see last night when I looked into my bedroom was me lying there and this person coming in and beating me up because I know too much and possibly deciding to pop me one too. I'm not going to stick around and find out.
They've got guns up there too, which makes it even scarier. All it could take too would be for me to be lying on my couch watching a movie and for someone to pop a bullet through my window and kill me.
So, finding safety.
I will try to post more often here. I've been going through a lot of trauma lately and some other things that I'm dealing with. Feeling very pregnant, but am not sure. Which would be another reason to get out of there.
And this last weekend was a four day weekend for my kids, so minus a laptop! And I've got to concentrate on more chapters to the novels.
Another thing: To all women who are taking Depo Prevera, stop taking it. It's not very effective and I have been reading all kinds of crap on this drug. And women are accidentally getting pregnant while on it and the urine tests come up negative when indeed you actually are pregnant. Not good.
Plus, it causes osteosperosis, breast cancer and cervical cancer, and anxiety, depression. Women are finding that it really messes up their system.
I'm off to the doctor's in hopes that they will order an ultrasound for me. If I am, I would be eleven weeks along and I'm feeling constant butterfly movements and those little popcorn kicks. Early this morning I am lying down and I'm feeling lots of action. It's really weird.
I figure if they won't give me an ultrasound at this point and they send me home and I continue to feel all the symptoms and the butterfly feelings become stronger with actual kicking, hey, I will not be leaving until they give me a damn ultrasound.
Jennifer Jo Fay
Copyrighted October 22, 2012
I have called the potential father so he is at least aware of that plus he knows how to handle a gun and I'm hoping I can find someone to teach me how to use one, should I feel I need one. I really do, but I'm not sure if I can handle having a gun in my house. I worry about having it and then end up being the weaker person and the intruder gets the gun and ends up getting me with it instead of me using it against him.