When you search for something
And you don’t know what that something is,
You feel the crucifixion of your wisdom.
The wisdom which has been the accomplishment of last of your years.
Accomplishment, which took more years for you to realize what you have accomplished.
And when you finally realize the accomplishment of what you wanted to accomplish,
You see the hallucinations of your end.
Which is actually not your end, but the end of a phase which was meant to end.
Or maybe, wasn’t meant to end? But whatever it is, it did end. Or maybe, it didn’t?
Anyway, I did lose something to which I lived up to.
Something, which made me realize where I belong.
This something which I lost, was it the something I was searching for?
My loved ones say, I am beyond all this.
‘My loved ones’ seems just a replacement for My loved ‘one’.
The ‘one’ which I take as an illusion.
Though I cant change reality.
But if it was an illusion, it was the most beautiful one.
And if I could, I’d say that I found the something I was searching for.
– Shantam Sahai
