I’ve been fighting a sore throat for over a day and I’m sure that this is due in large part to my weakened immune system from being so sleep-deprived. What makes it even worse is knowing that when I wake up so early in the morning, any sort of discomfort I might be experiencing will seal my fate to remain awake for the remainder of the night, as evidenced by last night. I fell asleep at 10pm and woke up at 11:56pm, took an Intermezzo but didn’t sleep again until two hours later when I snoozed for about 45 minutes, woke up, and snoozed for 20 minutes this morning before my alarm went off.
I only have one Intermezzo left and I will probably not be refilling my scrip. Meds aren’t working; this much we know. But whatever I’m doing with my body is working… I am so close to breezing past the goal weight I set for myself for May 3, and with a week to spare! I will keep plodding forward with my terrible sleep patterns, but work on relaxing myself about them.
Also, I’m in the process of cleaning out and painting a room in our house that will be used for my at-home yoga and pilates practice, and as a quiet place for me to write. I’m going to do white walls and paint some pretty coral flowers onto one of the walls, add paper lanterns for lighting, a soft area rug, a desk and shelves, plus a yoga ball, foam roller, and floor pillows. It’s going to be such a cool space when it’s done (I’ll post pics!) and I think that when I wake up in the middle of the night, I will just get up and go in there to stretch and relax and try not to judge myself.
So today my mood matches the weather… chilly and gray. I’m still in my jacket and scarf here at work, sipping on my second mug of tea and my legs are wrapped in a blanket. Fighting off the sleepiness and looking forward to yoga tonight, and then a hot bowl of glass noodles, maybe a little work in my nook and then collapse into bed.