Photo by Lindsey Edwards Photography
Sometimes I just need to take a step back.This year there are so many things that I want to accomplish and of those things I really am re-evaluating the purpose of this here blog. Some days I would ask myself why I do the things I do for this blog. For the most part, I feel that most of me just wants followers. I want to feel validated. Who doesn't? But it can't be about the "followers" all of the time. I know that sounds so against what I should say, but I have to make sure that even if no one read this, I would still blog. I would blog for me. No ulterior motives, no need for sponsorship or money, and no need for more and more followers. After all- this isn't my means of livelihood or income. Please don't get me wrong. I do appreciate everyone who reads! I appreciate everyone who follows and truly cares about what I have to say. That's why this year, I want to simplify things. I want a simpler blog design. I want navigation and I want to be ME. The real me. The me that hates to do laundry. The me that is extremely cynical and sarcastic. The me that loves "How I Met Your Mother" so much I will watch three seasons in one week. The me that is desperately trying to get her life back on track and learn how to let people in. That is me. I am not a super blogger. I am me and that is all I have. The photo above is me.
I have decided that after my ad spaces have expired I will no longer offer new ad space for the time being. For one, I am coordinating my new workout/eating routine and my time will be limited. I will also be posting less frequently and I have already missed key opportunities to shout out my current sponsors {I am really sorry about that by the way}. I feel that right now my focus needs to be me and my marriage, health, and spiritual well-being. This year cannot be about comparing myself or feeling inadequate. I have felt like that for too long and I am done. I am not one of those people that can easily balance everything. I either put too much into my work and neglect my health, or I focus solely on my blog and lose sight of my marriage. No, my blog is not "huge", but it does require writing posts, emailing, setting up guest posts and giveaways, tweeting, Facebooking, tweeting back, etc. It can be a lot of work.
Photo by Lindsey Edwards Photography
I will still blog, but for some time I need to think about why I do it. The internet is slammed pack full of websites, blogs, blogger, WordPress, etc. I want to find my place without worrying about where that might be. I appreciate everyone and I love this community, but some days it can be overwhelming.Thank you for allowing me to be honest. Here's to the new year, and new me!
