I’ve made healing from binge eating my number one priority right now. I’m not thinking about health all the time, calories, working out, or making smart food substitutions. I’m thinking about eating and my body.
I eat three meals a day, at the normal times. I eat snacks when I’m hungry and if I just want something to eat, I eat it. I guess it’s like getting back to the basics.
Wow, this is turning into a journal entry…
I’ve been doing really great and most days I’m eating less than I did when I had all the pressures from dieting. I’m really starting to understand how much binge eating is a mental problem. All the dieting and healthy eating has turned into negative aspects of my life. I do want to be a healthy eater, but I’m seeing that I need to get back to just straight up intuitive eating. Eat when hungry and whatever your hungry for, all so that I can be a healthier person for my entire life. I wont ever be able to kick binge eating without stripping all restrictions and rules from my life.
Doing the South Beach Diet really triggered my problems, which I’m in a way happy about. I have a much clearer idea of how to fix them now. Ultimately, I’m in the best place regarding food and body image I’ve been in since my senior year of high school.
Now… Today…
Today was a hard day I was in a snack-y mood and I just ate a lot more than I’d normally do. I’m sure part of it was because I was home all day not doing my normal routine. But all my old mental tricks started kicking in. I felt guilty for eating and I’ve been a little down all day. I’m trying to pull myself out.
I know this isn’t a usual blog post for Maren’s Morsels but this is really what I’m going through in regards to food. I know tomorrow will be a better day.
