What I learned this week.
This week I learned.
This week I learned?
This week I learned….
It actually felt like a bigger break through than it might have been, but it was a breakthrough nonetheless.
I realized I no longer enjoy running from one thing to the next. I don’t like stretching myself because two different friends or friendgroups want me at their event or somehow I feel obligated by association to show up. So in the old days, I would spend an hour here, an hour there with maybe a twenty drive in between… constantly feeling like I was leaving when it was getting good or arriving when things were winding down…. I sometimes felt that marvelous belle of the ball feeling, but mostly I went home feeling completely spent emotionally and not in a good way.
I was worried a bit because I didn’t want to accept
invitations and there were days I just wanted to stay home and create, to work
on my body of work, to see what would come next when I tried a or a and b or a
and c.
When I had my a-ha I realized all of this comes under the category “self care”.
I am not losing my grip, I am not “isolating myself” or “being a hermit” I am
following the call of my heart instead of the call of obligation.
This week I learned I am pretty content right now.
This week I learned there isn’t too much missing in my life or voids that need filling.
This week I learned I can gather myself in a warm quilt, sit in silence and watch the leaves blowing in the wind outside my window and just rest there without calling it “lazy”.
I knew these things before, but it was like I learned them all over again this week.
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This was my 5 minute Stream of Consciousness Sunday post. It’s five minutes of your time and a brain dump. Want to try it? Here are the rules…
- Set a timer and write for 5 minutes.
- Write an intro to the post if you want but don’t edit the post. No proofreading or spellchecking. This is writing in the raw.
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Julie Jordan Scott has been a Life & Creativity Coach, Writer, Facilitator and Teleclass Leader since 1999. She is also an award winning Actor, Director, Artist and Mother Extraordinaire. She was twice the StoryTelling Slam champion in Bakersfield. She leads Writing Camp with JJS & loves, loves, loves to bring this unique, fun-filled creative experience to the people wherever she finds the passion & the interest.