Too Personal for a Blog.

Posted on the 17 September 2012 by Mikidemann @mikidemann
How is your Monday? I woke up pretty depressed today. I had such a fantastic weekend, that it makes it really hard to jump back into the week. It's not even work that makes it hard it just weeks in general. I actually really love my job, and I love the people. I like being at work it's just that instead of sleeping in, cuddling all night, going to bed at 4am, wedding, brunches, state fairs, tinfoil dinners up in the mountains and being able to hang out with good friends and family.


 It is more boring during the week. I have to try to be in bed by 11, to sleep by midnight, I only get to see my sexy husband for a few short hours during the night, we fall asleep at different times and it's just less cuddle oriented. That's my extended version of why my Monday waking up was hard.
I have had a hard time blogging lately. There is so much going on in my life, and I want to write about it. I really want to tell my story. I want to document it. Sometimes I get stuck in this vicious circle. I always try to be upfront and personal on my blog. I tell my stories, and my stories make me who I am, so I choose to be open with my life. However I  know that I have family that reads my blog, and even though there is nothing too shocking in my life, there is lots of big news in my family. I really want to shout it out, and cry about it, and let everyone know that my life is going to change. The hard part is that in order to reveal the news to the blog world I need to explain things about myself, and my "religion" or lack there of, which I have a very hard time explaining my views. I honestly am not a religious person, even though I think that I am spiritual. 
I want to form this post, this perfect post to document these feelings and struggles, but every time I start to I cannot even start typing. I can't think of how to say it or how to start the post. I sit and stare at an empty screen. 
Do you ever get faced with this problem? Where you actually have something you WANT to say, something you WANT to write about, but cannot figure out how?