Troubled thoughts slowing me down
A couple of days ago, a friend of mines (a fashion graduate from Paris) asked me if I would be interested in doing a fashion show together.This is not a new idea to me, and is something that i definitely want to think about for this collection (which ive barley started btw). Ive been in Paris for close to 2 years now, and still trying to get my name out there, so what could be better than putting on a show for next springs Fashion week? But how? I have barley any contacts in France, so who would i invite? I mean apart from my friends etc….Agency head hunters? Human resource officers from fashion houses? I know a couple of local artists but thats about it really.
At the end of last week, after seeing my blog & website; a head hunter from a UK company offered me a job as design assistant if I was willing to re-locate to Edinburgh; An offer that I declined as I am sure that Its going to happen for me here in Paris and the idea of going home to Scotland doesn’t really cut it compared with the life ive built here. But how can I move on to the next level and really kick start my career?
This morning I watched McQueen & I, a British Documentary about Alexander McQueen, which was recently shown on Chanel 4. It was heart breaking, His life was so tragically brilliant that it threw me into a kind of depression. Such a wasted talent,such a tough industry, such high standards….Nothing that I didnt already know, but ive found it hard to work today, something in that film has gotten to me. Normally I can brush these things off, and use them as a reason to succeed…
…Normally I would see it as a challenge, I would get off my chair and say I can & I will do this. Ive had dayls like this before, as im sure have all designers. One example when i was a student ;my tutor said i was headed to fail, what did i do? I got off my backside, i worked my ass off and I proved her so wrong….
Oh well tomorrows another day, another chance to prove I can, Another chance to work hard & push myself…Tomorrow,or next week, next month or even nxt year, THIS IS GOING TO HAPPEN FOR ME!
xoxo LLM
