I'm quite sure that the least popular way to start a sentence is - I don't feel very good. But I don't feel very good, and I've never cared much about popularity.
This business of mamahood is a tough gig at times. Like currently. Theo is still having a tough time adjusting to all day school life. We're all having a tough time. The balance at our house has been jostled. We are so completely out of whack. But I finally had the aha! moment I've been praying for. It occurred to me over the weekend to stop trying and just let it be. And what I mean by that is tone down the praise and 'you're so brave' hype. Instead, I've welcomed silence and space for him to say something negative (which there is alot of each morning before and on the way to school). When he does accomplish something with bravery I've acknowledged the act with eye contact and a smile and silence. If it's a really bad moment, I ask him to breathe (I do too). So far we're making it. We're getting there.
In all this chaos these past three weeks, Sully has connected with Barney. What can I say?
I've become a wee bit obsessed with the Momofuku Milk Bar cookbook. I can honestly say that I've never worried much about being a great baker, but this book makes me want to learn as if I attended the French Culinary Institute myself. I set a goal to make every recipe in the book.
Lastly, I've been away from the blog and not just because I'm going crazy over making assorted "crumbs" and losing my heart and mind over parenting. I've been busy doing things like this. But don't say I didn't warn you just in case you have the slightest bit of baby fever.
Happy day, friends. Thanks for being here and letting me vent. xo, Katie
