I have been finding that many emotions have been rising to the surface as I write about the things I have learnt from being a carer, and watching my mom change before my eyes. I had been finding that the posts had been allowing me to express and share things that I had been putting on the back burner and subsequently the emotional fall out from that manifested in different ways. I have so much that I want to share creatively and with regards to helping others who may find them useful.
But I was missing something. I have been spending so much time writing about what I do that I hadn't been taking the time to just spend being creative, as there didn't seem to be the time and then after a while you begin to feel as if the well is running dry. I wasn't feeling the excitement of sharing as I had done at the beginning and it became a chore.
It is important to me to spend time being creative every day, and when that doesn't happen its like a drain just clogging up with stuff. My creative process enables me to release that stuff and thankfully as we express ourselves creatively that stuff is renewed and transformed and turned into a piece of art or a journal page.
This page, for me was a simple reminder that we are unique, we have so many things about ourselves that are 'all that' and more and I, we, you need a gentle reminder every now and then, especially when things seem to be clogged up!
As a carer you have to find ways to work with the time you have and take that time out (and I will cover that more in posts to come), but you have to recognize that you may not always have it together and if you don't step back and take a breath things can get overwhelming and you end up dropping a lot of balls that you had previously juggled without a problem. I made a conscious decision on Wednesday to release myself from the stress of posting, knowing that I set my pace and have to be realistic about what you can physically do. We also have to be mindful about committing to too many things and spreading ourselves too thin, but as a creative there is so much that I am inspired and that wants to be expressed - it can get crazy up in here!
You are so unique
I have promised myself to keep it simple from now, and I will aim to post the Carers Tips in the morning and the other posts later during the day. I am also posting some of the new work that I have been doing on my other mixed media art blog, so check it out. I am grateful and celebrate the ability to step back from the chaos and release the anxiety, stress or what ever else needs to be let go of. Tomorrow is another day for us to tackle challenges and be inspiring, so take it at your own pace.
Amazing qualities surround you!
For now, take a moment to think about what it is that you have that needs to be released, if only for a short while to get you back on track, or is it something that you need to let go of altogether, and give yourself permission to step back from the routine.
You can click on the 'Celebrating life' image to be taken to the rest of the posts on the Journey of a Carer.
