What If Your Husband Kissed Someone Else the Night You Two First Kissed?

Do any of you watch The Bachelor? I am watching it right now. I am getting caught up, so I am on the episode that aired this past Monday, the fantasy suite episode. Let me ask you all a serious question. If the man you loved had spent the night with 2 other women the same week as you two spent your first night together. Would you be okay with that? If you told him you loved him and he made out with another girl is that love? For me it is not. If I was on this show with Jared, I would legit expect him to spend the night with just me and say no to the other 2 girls. If he's a week away from proposing he should know who he loves. I don't understand how you can mess with your life for a TV show. Don't get me wrong I hella love watching The Bachelor. I think it's incredibly entertaining. These are real people though. Would you marry someone for good TV? I certainly could not. Especially with how hard marriage can be. I love Jared with my whole heart but marriage can be rough. Mostly because you are learning to care about someone else above yourself. You go through this phase in your life where you're insanely selfish. I needed that phase where all I cared about was me. Now I am sitting here wondering how we're going to come up with the money to pay for surgery on Jared's knee if he ends up needing it. Funny how fast that can flip.

How can you fall in love on TV because of situations that you conveniently placed in and then have that transfer over to real life? You go from having everything paid for being flown all over the world and then all the sudden the cameras turn off. No one cares and your married. You won. Wouldn't that be weird?

The first time Jared told me he loved me is embroidered on my brain. It was May 1st 2009. We've been together for 4 years and sometimes when we argue I still remember things like: our first kiss, the time he tricked me into saying I love you, our first vacation together, our first camping trip, and those things that we share, and only us. I am so glad that those memories aren't jaded like what if Jared's first kiss with me was 20 minutes after he kissed someone else. Yeah, that wouldn't fly well with me.

It's no wonder these couples don't usually last. How could you? You'd watch your love unfold on TV while your lover is loving up on 10 different girls. Also that he STRUGGLED with deciding if he should propose marriage to you or another girl. Oh man. I am not nearly competitive enough for that.

There's my love rant. How would you feel if you were put in that situation? Could you fall in love like that? Tell me por favor.