Why is it that of all the people in the world, it is me who has to face these difficulties? What has God got against me to make me suffer like this? Why is that the rest of the world is going on with their lives and mine seems stagnant? Time is moving ahead but life isn't? When life becomes a waiting game, the only thing we can do is learn to kill time as fast as we can. I have been doing that for a few months now.
By asking "Why Me", am I wishing the same fate on someone else? Why it couldn't have been someone else? Isn't that what the question actually means?
Forever I have asked myself that question and I have always answered myself with the same silly logic. That is, at least I am better off than many others. Finding the silver lining is helpful to go through such situations. But what if there isn't one? What does one do then?There is this change I have seen in me these past few months. I hear me asking myself "Why not me?"
What is it that makes me not deserve what ever is coming my way? It might me a punishment of some kind or maybe it's a storm before the calm. Maybe all these years of existing will end with this storm and life will come out of it like a beautiful butterfly. Only time will tell!
Living in a cocoon of emotional turmoil and exceeded expectations is not an enjoyable task. But if there was not a bright future to look forward to too, life would go back to just existing in a worm stage.
My life is waiting for a Metamorphosis. The urge to fly off has to be contained for now. I am happy and I am secretly asking myself this question over and again, “Why not me? Don’t I deserve it?"
